Extreme Emotional Outbursts

Extreme emotional outbursts are my final frontier to overcome my last vestiges of negative behavior patterns in my life.

One major aspect of Ascension is for each one of us to truly look inside ourselves and see where we still have blockages, negative patterns or addictions which keep us from fully living a positive life. For me, I began to systematically work on each aspect of negativity in my life, whether it be physical or mental, and begin to eradicate each blockage from my system using deep thinking, meditation, heart-based investigation, being really real with myself, seeking out alternative healing modalities, and generally doing whatever it takes to clear my subconscious depending on what blockage came up.

However one of the the hardest things to overcome for me are sporadic emotional outbursts. During these outbursts, I begin to feel adrenaline pumping in my body and then suddenly I am crying hysterically, drowning in negative emotions and beginning to spiral out that negativity into the environment around me. Not good. These outbursts happen when I'm triggered emotionally. At first I blamed myself as weak or F***d up and didn't understand why certain things could trigger me into hysteria when I had lived such a good and lucky life. I hated myself for this, and always felt guilty after it happened.

Through a lot of self discovery, I have found that these triggers usually stem from past lives. I've come to understand that there is a lot of cellular memory in my energetic body that remembers very dark dark times on this Earth and lived horrors that should not ever happen to a human. Because I'm an Indigo that has lived since the times of Lemuria and Atlantis, along with many many lives in the historical timelines full of trauma and drama which allowed me to witness firsthand the kind of darkness that happens on this planet. I personally have suffered a lot of trauma around childbirth, motherhood, sexuality, and being tortured for speaking my truth.

I have come to the conclusion (with the help of my guides) that my higher-self chose to live these dark lives in order to testify to it this current lifetime, and also in order to clear the historical timelines of this same darkness as I do my clearing work in this life. 

Because of all the trauma in my own past lives, I still get triggered into emotional outbursts more often than I would like. It causes an adrenal reaction, then a panic reaction, then extreme anxiety and then full force panic attack. It is an ongoing battle, but I have been able to see a great reduction in this problem since I have done past life regression, consistent meditation and daily energetic shielding..

​I think, even though this fight is ongoing, I am still making progress by just having the consciousness of what is at the root of this problem. Growing up and into my young adulthood,  I always thought that my emotional outbursts where my problem of lack of self-control and weakness. I viewed these outbursts as a form of mental illness, and this conclusion was completely supported by the world around me. This is the viewpoint of my family growing up and my husband earlier on in our marriage. My husband found it hard to have compassion because he is not an Indigo like me and does not have the same cellular trauma.

Emotional outbursts triggered from past life trauma can be hard for people to understand if they have not suffered the same types of abuses in their own soul history. It worked wonders for my husband to explain it in a calm and loving way to him. He is now trying to be more helpful and supportive, and I have seen a real change in his perspective. For me, just having compassion for myself has been a very big turning point. Also talking to my husband has also really helped him to have compassion where before he did not.

I will leave you with a very good Lisa Renée quote about this:
"Extreme mental and emotional imbalances are manifesting outwardly in many of the earth population, by those who are being suppressed from accessing multidimensional consciousness anatomy, as well as Ascension knowledge.  People that are unprepared mentally, emotionally and spiritually, to comprehend the impact of these Ascension changes made upon our body, are subjected to excessive sensations of emotional tension and mental anxiety. Unfortunately, the suppression of consciousness information has been made successful by labeling multidimensional consciousness experiences as psychological or emotional diseases. Nonetheless, with non judgment and unconditional love, it is imperative to address unresolved conflicts that create anxiety in our mind, emotions and body, and apply clearing and healing tools to remove discord, and replace these negative feelings with neutrality and inner harmony. With some basic energetic context and proper meditation tools, this can be accomplished." (Lisa Renee)

So if you are experiencing extreme emotional outburst I would suggest you get to the root of the problem via meditation. Whether it be in this life, or the another, get down to the root of your issues in the Ascension context and learn how to grow and evolve through it, and thank the Universe for bringing these blockages to the service to be released.