So last week was the full moon in Cancer and also my birthday on January 12. I had been feeling exhausted and very emotional for a few days leading up to it, amplified by the cancer full moon. I got weepy and crying the day before my birthday which is par for the course for a birthday. Finally had a beautiful birthday dinner with my girls last night at Gracias Madre, which is an AMAZING vegan Mexican restaurant in LA. (in case you don’t already know)
And yet, I just feel SO strongly this general trend of everything that is still stuck inside us coming to the service to be released, and it's just exhausting. Just when we think we’ve had a great breakthrough, or think that we can't take anymore… there's still so much more to do. It's like a ninja training that just keeps going on and on. We are honing our skills. Our Defense Against the Dark Arts skills, and our skills to live as fully embodied LOVE on Earth at this time of great consciousness potential.
I have also been having the most intense dreams. Every night is a nightmare. Nightmare after nightmare. That along with a baby that wakes up to feed every hour this week (growth spurt) and a toddler and a husband and two huge dogs, it has been like the Chinese water torture because I have not been able to sleep. I feel as though I've been a dream warrior, not sleeping for more than an hour in a stretch and waking to remember the most intense and incredible dreams.
Certain themes are coming back to me in these nightmares…such as a hotel in a familiar city, trying to escape with heavy legs, loosing my children in crowded places, trying to get my friends and family out and escape crowded places. Feeling this over and over and over.
So now, by necessity, I am trying to develop my skills as a lucid dreamer. I bought the Carlos Castanedas book “The Art of Dreaming.” I am also trying to write down my dreams and have a notebook right next to my bed because I always think I’m going to remember it in the morning, but the dream always fades. I have figured out that in my dream, when I think, “Oh this dream situation is SO obvious! Of course I will remember.” That it that is a signal to myself that I need, in fact, to write the dream down in my notebook. I'm just trying to figure out what is in there that I have been fighting all night long….All this at night, while trying to wrangle a toddler tyrant genius and a sweet baby girl who looks EXACTLY like me J and writing manifestos, creating podcasts, poetry and art or writing a blog, when I get a spare minute.
This has just been and time of intense INTENSE hard work, but I am willing to do it because I know hard work is necessary in order achieve your goals… and I'm willing to do whatever it takes to achieve Ascension for myself and this planet, and I COMMAND MY PERSONAL SPACE in order to do so.
Check out this "Girl Crush" Q&A session I did with my partner in crime Amber Lestrange. Here is the Link,
Here is the interview:
Jenna Pennrose/Philosopher/Poet/Vessel of Universal love/Co-creator of 'The Mother Loving Future' Podcast (coming soon)
AKA Ascension Mama
What is your definition of a crushable girl?
A girl that follows the beat of her own drum, does not care about mainstream acceptance, and has a burning desire to change the world for the betterment of all, not for ego.
What is your heart’s path?
To embody love, to be a vessel of light, to communicate truth, and to use my talents wherever they are needed to make this world a little brighter.
What are you working on right now?
Currently, I am writing a children’s book and also a manifesto on multi-dimensional morality. I am also editing and publishing some exciting books for other Ascension authors. Not to mention a weekly blog…and (epic) weekly Podcast.
Daily rituals to support your health and happiness?
Energetic shielding meditations and grounding cord meditations multiple times a day.
What makes you glow?
If I ever glow, it is from within, with the infinite, unconditional love of true spirit.
What is your secret to a successful relationship?
A joint mission and the ego must die. In my opinion, both partners should put the other before themselves.
Who are you listening to right now?
My spirit guides.
How do you nourish your inner goddess?
I heal myself. I work hard to put a priority on removing all internal blockages that prevent me from FULLY manifesting my inner goddess in the outer world 100% of the time.
Something you currently cannot go without?
Coconut oil, essential oils, pink Himalayan salt, turmeric, apple cider vinegar
4 best beauty secrets?
1. Using organic coconut oil everywhere.
2. Making my own beauty products (see my website for recipes) including a face serum using rose essential oil diluted in cold pressed jojoba or rosehip oil.
3. Drinking nothing but plenty of pure and clean water (sometimes tea).
4. Eating all organic if possible.
What accomplishment are you most proud of?
Following my heart in spite of everything. And my two babies.
What is your unique gift?
Poetry. I can pretty much speak in rhyming iambic pentameter or limerick.
…Amber came up to me one day,
Saying, “A question or two, if I may?”
So I said that I would,
I’d send back when I could,
Now I’m here filling out this survey.
What are 3 ways of being that have contributed to your success?
1. Remaining heart-based (instead of relying on linear mental processes)
2. Staying open-minded and flexible, as things beyond our wildest dreams are possible and happening as we speak.
3. Trusting my intuition.
What is your favorite scent?
What taste on your lips can you not get enough of?
Strawberries. But if you mean what food flavors can I not get enough of, then yes strawberries, pesto, and anything almond (marzipan, amaretto, almond milk, ect).
What are you letting go of?
What are you calling in?
The strength to be a lighthouse of unconditional love and the undeniable wisdom of Truth/Spirit/Source in a dark, dark world.
What inspiring words of wisdom would you give your 10 year old self?
Keep listening to the Beatles, good call.
What do you LOVE about your yourself
I am partial to my eyelashes (no mascara necessary) and the shape of my hands (born to play piano, I guess), but more than any physical characteristic, I love that I am willing to never compromise my commitment to shifting the consciousness of this planet toward love and peaceful sustainability. I LOVE my whole-hearted commitment to my path with every cell of my body, I LOVE living this fully every day of my life.
Today, I was speaking to my dear friend as she begins to consider another pregnacy journey, and I am SO EXCITED to experience her future pregnancy with her whenever it chooses to manifest in divine timing. So for that reason, this seemed fitting...From the article I wrote for the lovely ladies at YourZenMama.com...
"Even before conception, I could feel my two children’s spirits whispering in my ear and wanting to be born. Making my body a vessel to grow and output their divine love has been one of the most profoundly spiritual experiences of my life. I know many people who could accurately feel the spirit of their baby for many years before the child is born. As far as I understand it, babies and parents have a soul contract that is sorted out in the place of no-time in between lifetimes. So you are already coming in to this life with the pre-knowledge of exactly who your children will be, and so for this reason, you can already feel a very strong connection with your baby before they are even conceived. If you have yet to get pregnant, or if you’re newly pregnant, tune in to the soul of your baby and see what your intuition tells you, write it all down, and then see how much ends up being spot on.
Honestly, there is really not much that can prepare you for the immense change that you are heading for when thinking about bringing a child into this world. For me, the greatest lesson in preparing for pregnancy was being in the mindset of divine timing. Having trust that it would happen at the perfect time. I call it a lesson because for me this was a hard thing to learn, since time/timing has been an anxiety trigger for me. Trusting in the divinely timed conception of your child is the first time that you are called to let your ego die in the childbearing process. It is not about what you think would be perfect, it is about trusting that the perfect time will come and that it will happen then. When you are ready to get pregnant, I would also suggest consciously calling the spirit forward with your partner, letting the spirit of your child know that mom and dad are ready to receive them, and then waiting for it to occur in divine timing. Other helpful things that I did to make my body ready for pregnancy…Acupuncture- Acupuncture points can really awaken and jumpstart reproductive organs
Chinese Herbs-Chinese herbs can help to balance energies and hormones
Chiropractic Adjustment- Good alignment can help with a comfortable pregnancy and keep baby in optimal position
Healthy diet/lifestyle- Cutting out toxins in personal products and processed foods, eating all organic if possible
Prenatal vitamins-Start taking them early to get your body ready for making a baby
Lots of water- Water is the juice of life and helps flush out toxicity
Finding Peace-It will happen at the perfect time, come to peace with timing and family members
When you find yourself pregnant, tune into the baby, connect your hearts, shield yourself and baby in meditation, feel universal love being poured into the baby from your grounding cords. Meditate a lot on the connection you have. Do not give into anxiety that tries to sway you from your intuition. Eat what feels good for you, do what feels good for you. Move in the ways of resonance and don’t look back. Don’t rely on non-resonant medical advice or unnecessary intervention if it contradicts your intuition. Ask your baby how they want to be born. Let them choose their own birthday. Ask your baby what they want to be named. Honor this new life as something that must live free from the control of your ego."